Learn to say No, and be myself

Sometimes too much considerations on others, peoples will take for granted.
Keep a distance should be the right way to be nice person. Learn the lesson hard pain now.
Even family member except own family and kids, no one is true family for married woman in her husband's family.

They only think of themselves and want the son to obey to them. They want to rule the family with rude manner to force you follow. Once you in need for help they will push you to edge. Waiting to see your response. When complains to husband, he has thousamd reasons why the mom do so.

So I learn the lesson. I will not pay for nothing or no reason anymore - just like what they did to me.

One day when they sick i will tell hundred of reasons that i cant help. No mercy anymore.

Pray Hard to Escape From Hell

Day 1 - 1st April, 2015
- get a job, but have not being replied for offer letter. Counting day 1 to have the offer letter fast.
- followed up with agent, but no reply - as of no one pick up call. Is the agent on leave?
- sent a follow up email to the agent's manager, hopefully she will reply.. waiting.
- yesterday hiring manager said he is also having his side to push for the offer... but ???
- Pray hard that i will get it.
- from heart, a lot of questions ponder me.... why i am in this situation? From the religions point of view, am I doing something bad that causing me this crisis?
- I just do my work, in a good manner, but why???
- Ponder, ponder....

May god be my side to help me out. Amitabha. Sadhu, sadhu!

mid year crisis

i think i am stuck in the mid year career crisis...
just have no clue why bad luck is always tailing me, or i am just not as capable as i was use to be?
sometimes, i just hope to have a peaceful working life... work on what is being instructed, but peoples just couldn't leave me alone. they just like to blame what they do not want to responsible to. they just throw their stress to others. shall i fight back? I think i shall, but how much i can? I am tired to be such a life.

I am thinking to change, but how, and where to start from? Shall i sacrifice what i have now? Or i have been overpaid for the job?
Sometimes, i just wonder the same job scope, but the expectation is so much different... why so? Is it i am not well-versed in my area, or i am not good in presenting myself, or i am not boosting a lot?

I just hope that it will retrench me, and i find a job that simple enough to keep my living easy...

Pray hard, may god bless me well... amithaba! may buddha bless me...
hope i didnt do anything bad that cause the karma. hope what i try to contribute to society is being appreciated, and i am being care for as well...
Although i know we can't expect return from what we have done good, but i do pray hard that i wont be treated bad ...

Sadhu! Sadhu! Sadhu! This reminds me that it is time for chanting... I shall chant to have a good earning, and living life...

Endurance

counting the endurance days -
18th Nov, 2013 - endure the day. tell myself to be strong to face this situation. be tough to go over the unhappiness that causing me demotivated. let the unfairness being proof when time comes. let the karma to teach the bad hearted creatures.

Monday - 18th Nov - Afternoon

Received an email about my application. It shows a ray of light. And, I pray hard to get the application works thru. If yes, there is a layer of warranty for the next step. - at least ease of my worry being jobless, and a layer of cushion to slowly find a requirement fit job. Amithaba! I really pray hard to get the application works!

Monday - 18th Nov 2013

Monday to start the week - an employee will visit the office. Expect to be a week that need to entertains peoples. Hope thing will not go worse. More worry abou tomorrow's dinner - shall check if I can be excuse from it. But, i am really doubt if I can exempted from the dinner. The evaluation is not visible , so he can take any reason to rate you low. Pray hard again to hear news for next stop. Amithaba!

Revamp to gain positive energy

So long has been impacting by negative energy. Come to today, suddenly I feel all the negative energies are not worth to make my life sad. As what all friends see me - I have a good family, loving hubby, happy baby, considerate in laws, and by all means parents and sister, supportive siblings (including in law siblings). Near to freedom financial status. Why shall I bother of the little friction that happens in job? Somehow, it is clear that it is not the truth that causing the friction. It is rather the perception of one person that making the chaos. Job is part of the life, and the current is just part of the job life. It always an opportunity to change. Although luck is not at my end, I will stay tune to consistently improve my self value. Opportunity is given to people that is well prepared and ready to accept. Yes, I fail here. But I will shine back here or somewhere else. I shall look at the happy and positive life of mine. And, yes whoever that hurts me just because he or she feels to penalize me for his or her own ego, please do so. By means, god will not always at your end to help you do bad things. Karma will find you one day for what you have built to hurt a mother, a wife, a dedicated employee. I will pray hard to get my new destination. For the day it comes I will say goodbye to you. And, it is rather of mix feeling shall we cross again to see how each other grows... For this, I promise myself to be considerate, self motivated, self improved and live happily. I shall see how you live with all the karma that you have built. Amithaba! Sadhu sadhu!