Letter from my sponsored child

It is glad that I receieved a letter from the child that I sponsored.
But the sorrow feeling comes across when I read thru the writting from the father.

She is a happy girl with no worry, and likes to learn. But she is born in a family with a long term illness father, and a handicap mother. If there is no one sponsor her, she might not able to persue her study.

I am glad that I am given a chance to sponsor the child. I shall feel gratitude to the life that I have now, and try my very best to help those that in need.

Live life to the fullest although it is imperfect

Dont cling to perfectionist as life is not about perfect or not.
Live life to the fullest although it is imperfect.

Accept as is, forgive yourself, forgive others.
If you are able to forgive yourself, you are able to forgive others.
If you are able to love yourself, you are able to love others.

Practice meditation although it is just a breath in and out. Start from a breath in and out, and increase to the fullest mind that you are able to concentrate.
Live in the present, there is not necessary to review the past. Present is the result of the past, and future is the result of the present. Living in present will make you see your past and result in future.

Forgive yourself as if you forgive others. See but not look, hear but not listen. If it is a mistake, see it but dont look into it. Forgive it although you cant forget it.

Mind management: awareness, concentrate, wisdom. I hope what i learn today, I can practice as much as I can.

Encouragement

I need courage to admit what I have done is wrong.
I need courage to overcome the fear that I have.
I need courage to talk to the person who hurt me before.
I need courage to against the phobia.

Today, I have the courages to go thru what I mentioned above. I wish to admit what I have done is wrong. I wish to have no fear on whatever I am encountering. I wish to talk to the person who hurt me earlier - I wish to go for chantting that I let go long time ago. I appologise that I let go my religion due to my fear to admit what have passed. I wish the phobia that I have can be broken with the wishes that I mentioned.

I am back to normal

To my dearest friends, thanks for the regards.
I am back to normal after some thoughts and readings.

The refresh feeling is there, no more hatred heart. And, I am glad that I can recover fast and feel the warmth friendship.

I was lost, but I see the direction now.
I was frustrated, but I understand the situation better now.
I was not happy, but I am peaceful now.

Again, put on my running shoes, walk thru the journey to the best that I can.
Life is still going on. Let go, at ease. If you understand the saying - 随缘莫攀缘。随缘自着，攀缘烦恼。Let bygone be bygone. Shall the better will come.

I am glad that I am a religious buddhist, who is given a chance to understand human living better.

I am sad...

I am sad, but I am not able to show on face.
I love someone, but I am not able to tell.
I make wrong response, but I am not able to retract.
I am wrong, but I have no chance to appologise.

Now, I am suffering. And, I scare to experience the suffer feeling. I try to hide, and it makes things worse. No one trust I am sad. What shall I do? I crack my head, but there is no answer.

I shall let the person knows that I am sad. But, will he trust me again?

I am scare to experience the sadness. I know I will drown to die.
What shall I do? Can I stand the sadness alone?

New Year New Resolution

New year new resolutions...

Practice the NO:
1.) No fear
2.) No hatred heart
3.) No jealous
4.) No wild thinking
5.) No swingy mood
6.) No self abuse
7.) No rude word
8.) No suspicious thought
9.) No discourage heart
10) No critism

Practice the YES:
1.) Be strong
2.) Be kind
3.) Be generous
4.) Be stable
5.) Be patient
6.) Be passionate
7.) Be polite
8.) Be steady
9.) Encouragement
10.) Appreciate & Compliment

May all the Yes and No being practice with peaceful mind and happy feeling heart.
May all the Yes and No bring joyfulness to the new year...

Eyes vs Mind

I see what I have seen, but I hope what I have seen is not the truth.
It was shocking my head to toe, but I have seen what I shall not see.

I do not agree, but I can't deny.
I do not believe, but I have seen.

To discard the truth, I shall tell myself I am having short sighted eyes. If I am having eyes problem, what I have seen is just a shadow which make not truth.
If it is not the truth, I am still able to hold my strong belief.
With the strong belief, there is no fear.
When there is no fear, life is always at the bright side.

And, I shall tell myself - life is always full of hope...