Sad day...

not sure how long more to endure for this situation... bad luck in work, not good in health... just feel weaker and weaker... has been working so long, and due to a rude, not ethical employee, being penalized by employer... such unfair! and I learnt that boss is always right in whatever he perceive. He can use other reason to penalize a person for his own revenge reason. learnt that a banana is rather closer to white. hope more Asian companies to grow stronger and beat the west ... but actually not the west. So long has been working with west... cause me no problem... guess, it is problem of a kangaroo land peoples... now, it makes me hate the white of kangaroo..., especially those cant finish from university... people who think he is people oriented, in fact he is like Hitler - autocratic! wish him to hit his day one day... and get him to feel the sadness that he has built to others. with his pet, who bites him, yet he still miss it so much... I do hope that he will be bitten again and again until he dies...

Finally....

today finally announce that aka dog decides to leave.. which is expected.. although some feels sad to let the dog out... the paid off for the dog is not worth... wasted budget for useful events... even for charity work... next step is pray hard to find next station... and leave the old station ... will see how's the old station grows ... the vision!

Quote of the day - long waiting description to a dog -a/k dc

A person who uses work to 'revenge' on personal matter is the most cheapskate person in the world...selfish and pathetic scumbag.

Psychiatry

(Psychiatry) a person afflicted with a personality disorder characterized by a tendency to commit antisocial and sometimes violent acts and a failure to feel guilt for such acts Also called sociopath... Eg: when frustrated will break the glasses..., criticize people not working....likes to pick up others minor error..., self boosting ....., quirky...., twick words around..., likes to polish bosses' shoes..., manipulate others trust by stalking people's personal life..., eating own food counting others plates... Freaking head....etc... Definition of being psychiatry....

Unexpected Office Politic

It is a bit of shock to me that i have involved or even triggered an unexpected office politic. And, it is even more scary when i get to know a person can suppress his enmity months - waiting to attack! It is always not a good idea to over protect subordinate (just because you are his direct report) and stab others especially peers just because you want to survive your own peoples or to show your territory. Nevertherless, if it is a security or safety violation, it will ruin the subordinate's career path (being caught and expelled from the company) due to the direct report compromises some illegal matters.

It does not help the subordinate, instead it is extending the subordinate to more violations unconciously. Is it a wise action to revenge your peers by compromising your subordinate's career? It is good feeling when there is a chance that you can retaliate others. However, it is not a good idea if you involve your subordinate and sacrify his career path just because of the good feeling!!!

Guess, to be a leader, it really needs a better or higher EQ to tolerate on others comments, and feedbacks. And, it is also important that do not take the comments personally, heartache for months and years, just because waiting for a chance to revenge.

Life is short, enjoy, and take comments and feedback as a gift to be a better person!!!

Somehow, i deeply sympathy the subordinate of this person! It is just like a kid is not doing right, yet the parent is blaming on others to protect his own child. It will spoil the kid instead of helping the kid to improve. The kid is innocent, enjoying the 'love' of the parents does not help his future. It may ruins his entire life!!!

Wake up! Please be a responsible leader!

Exhausted mind, exhausted body, exhausted soul ...

I think i am aging as i started to have physically tireness from time to time... The brain just couldnt function well... it just like a CPU that is hang, and feels doing nothing! I force myself to do more things, but my brain just couldnt process more... Even i insist myself to do the work, end up there is so much careless mistake happens... I started to feel hopeless on myself for being careless, and out of control on my brain, and my body... Shall i look for easier job? Shall i stop torturing myself? OR Shall i give myself a break and resume the reading & and adventures? OR Shall i find a better way to continue earning? Somehow, sometimes, i just feel to let go everything... moving to a spiritual world - chanting for a week to release my mind tireness, my body tireness... etc, etc... amitabha.

PMP credential cycle extended!

Nothing much of this topic, just feel to share that I have extended the PMP credential cycle! With the effort of collecting 60 PDUs, and after paying USD299 + USD60, finally one of the worry that always stick in my mind gone away...

Yes! I can phase out this worriness from my memory for at least 6 years from now. What a relief! It was not big enough to impact my life, but I just feel that i shouldnt let go a hard earned credential after all the hardwork and pressure that i have gone thru...

Hurray! Bravo to myself! (lol, although i might be the only one that boosting about this.. :-p)