Love

If I were given a chance to grab it, I will; as it brings me sense of secure, joyfulness, heart warm feeling which I almost forgotten. It is the lovely feeling that I was longing...

It is a trustworthy relationship...someone that you believe in...someone that you trust... someone that wont let you down... someone that will take care of your feeling.... someone that can forgive your wildness behaviour... It might not a perfect romantic relationship, but it does bring joyfulness ...the calm relationship that can long lasting...

Hopefully this is the last and forever relationship ...

A step to reach, yet the gap is so far...

It is a step to reach, but the gap is so far until I can't sense the bridge.
Most of the time, I am shed by a shadow that I am not able to wipe it out. It is shadow of me, and it is shadow of you. The shadow cant be wipe out, it cant be forgotten. It lives in between. It hurts both, although it is being denied.

And, if even, what have said is true, it is still a step to reach. A step that hold me go no where. To bridge the gap, it does not bring any ending, as the truth is not able to convey. The truth might is a past, but it is still hurting, and holding you back to tell. Your hold back, makes me uncertain to step further.

When a person grows older, we resist to think. As the more we think, the more we sink. To float on the surface to catch the air, we stay tune without moving forward, although we think we are moving forward. Well, we try to hold the past, chase the past, but never take a look into present. When present becomes a past, again we will chase the past. The loop is never ending. And, how could we stop chasing something is already past? Hold the present, and really move forward.

No more moody mood...

Moody mode has change... When the sun rises, the gloomy day will disappear... When the moody mood is cheer up, the uncertain feeling will be chase away.. and the heart will be fill up with happiness and gratitude...

Illusion is no longer there...it has be shaded with brightness light. Sunlight eaten up the darkness night...Life turns to be full of hope...

Moooooooooody

Roller coaster feeling...The spike of happy feeling just destroy in a split second... I am not happy...

I am moody...I guess...there is something hiding inside my heart, which I might or might not realize. But, I guess I rather leave it aside. If it is not being dig out, I think it wil be bury inside the heart forever and forever.

I rather believe what I see on the surface of the heart. It is rather cruel to clean the dust and dig out the feel. It will disappear along the wind...it will disappear along the time....

It will disappear....It will....

And, my life will back to normal, I will be happy again.. Life is beautiful again.. and always... It is just an illusion feeling ...

Let go, at ease...

When you learn to let go, you will feel the freedom from your heart.

When you have the freedom internally, you will not suffer.

When you are not suffering, happiness will always surrouding you.

Let go, at ease...

When it is time to take a break, you shall stop and enjoy the scenery that you have.

Happy Valentines Day... Enjoy the freedom that you have, from the heart, mind, and every pieces of you...

Passionate

The word passionate is far to me, as I am a impatient person.

From my young age, my father trained me to become a patient person. He use to fetch me late purposely. And, he knew that I will throw temper due to impatient character. But, he insist to let me waited for long long hours just to train me to be passionate enough for everything that is not smooth in life. I learnt to accept as it, be patient, live a life with a boundary, learn the rules of survival. However, when i grow older and older, my passionate level is loosen and loosen. I get angry easily, not patient to wait, eager for things as fast as my eye glance. I sense that I am loosing passionate in everything surrounding me, I expect what i hope will realize as what I wish. I never put on others' shoes to understand others' feeling, and situation. I am selfish! I am inconsiderate.

I wish to change the attitude that I have - I want to become a passionate person that is willing to accept as it, forgive people, passionate to learn to understand situation better, passionate to wait for others to react as they wish to.

Everyone deserves to be treated patiently. I shall respect others' thoughts, feeling, and actions.
I am regret in whatever I have done impatiently causing inconvinient to others. I shall learn to be passionate to wait and respect others. Passionate to go thru the whole situation / story, shouldnt jump into conclusion, and respect each of the decision that make by others, do not simply challenge others' thought as it is incosiderate to others, do not simply deny others' words.

A life without limbs

Here is a real story that I would like to share with you:
http://jp.youtube.com/watch?v=MslbhDZoniY

I think everyone face difficulties and disppointment along our life. We easily give up anything that upset us. And, we are lucky enough as we have a choice to learn in a smooth path. If you are born with no limbs, what will be your life? Give up? Or try a thousand or million times to get back up?

Never give up! Life does not give up you, and shall you not give up your life! There is always miracle comes along when you try it up...thousand, million times...it is no end, but it is matters of how you finish it strong...

Words from Nick:

Everyone knows when fall down, we will get back up.
But, sometimes in life, we fall down and may have no strength to get back up, we feel hopeless - do you think you have hope?

When I fall down, face down, no arms and no legs. It should be impossible for me to get back up. But it is not. I would tried 100 times to get up. If I failed 100 times, and give up. Will I able to get back up? The answer is no! But if you try again, and again and again. It is not the end. It is matter of how you are going to finish. Are you going to finish it strong? You will find the strength to get back up......