Shame to say...I always have a wavering mind...vacillating from one end to another end.
At one moment I whispered to myself - I want to be a stronger person. And, I believe that I am managing my life pretty well. I am quintessentially a strong independent and mature person that do not need any external interfences.
Then few seconds later, I just felt that everything is empty, things seem to fall apart and haunted by inglorious past. Will things get better? Is there any point to move on? Anything wrong with me? Self doubt!
There are times where I feel to lash out at peoples who have hurt me, hurt them as bad as they have done so to me. Then I realize that it is indeed a pointless exercise.
In fact everything seems rather pointless... putting in efforts for others, being nice to people, helping others, falling in love, and even this blog post....
But since no one would probably be reading it, so not much is gained or lost, right?
Tuesday, July 29, 2008
Saturday, July 26, 2008
Devil's thought...
By the name of religion, DEVIL is a major personified spirit of evil, ruler of Hell, and foe of God...
Do you believe inside yourself, it stays an angel and a devil that influence your thinking? I do believe...
So, how shall I cultivate the angel and shoo away the devil?
Musing!
It is Friday!
After a hectic week, and finally it is Friday again! It is a love and hate affair day. People starts to plan for weekend, and no one hopes to be drag back for work. God bless, I am able to off my jabber at the right timing. And, I am going off!
It was a killing week as I was working hard to rush for the projects deadlines and cleaning up my house. You must be wondering why I was dashing to clean up the house from living room, kitchen, until the store room. Who is the one that inpires me to do so?
Partially, I am being motivated for the smooth life that I am longing to. However, the most crucial determination that pushes me to tidy up the house is I need a fairly new environment which can move me farer, and make my life happier...
I was procrastinating the house cleaning process for almost 2 years. During the 1st year moving into this house, I was procrastinating because of house renovation, new job, and new environment. When 2nd year comes, I was procrastinating due to no time, and no energy for a big house. I was even pondering to move to a new apartment to avoid the mess of the house.
I suppose too much execuses for the passed 2 years! Finally I decided - It is time to detox the rubbish and toxin away from my habitat. And, I did it!
From now and then, I am owning this comfortable and warm atmosphere house. I could have my warm hearty tea break in front of the tv, lazying on the tender soft sofa, gazing on the white clear ceiling, and allowing my mind cruising for any brilliant thought. Every brilliant idea comes from a cozy environment... ^_^
Home sweet home,
you set me free,
and I will always on my way to you ...
Oops...it is Saturday now... I shall start my day with the COZY habitat ... ^__^
It was a killing week as I was working hard to rush for the projects deadlines and cleaning up my house. You must be wondering why I was dashing to clean up the house from living room, kitchen, until the store room. Who is the one that inpires me to do so?
Partially, I am being motivated for the smooth life that I am longing to. However, the most crucial determination that pushes me to tidy up the house is I need a fairly new environment which can move me farer, and make my life happier...
I was procrastinating the house cleaning process for almost 2 years. During the 1st year moving into this house, I was procrastinating because of house renovation, new job, and new environment. When 2nd year comes, I was procrastinating due to no time, and no energy for a big house. I was even pondering to move to a new apartment to avoid the mess of the house.
I suppose too much execuses for the passed 2 years! Finally I decided - It is time to detox the rubbish and toxin away from my habitat. And, I did it!
From now and then, I am owning this comfortable and warm atmosphere house. I could have my warm hearty tea break in front of the tv, lazying on the tender soft sofa, gazing on the white clear ceiling, and allowing my mind cruising for any brilliant thought. Every brilliant idea comes from a cozy environment... ^_^
Home sweet home,
you set me free,
and I will always on my way to you ...
Oops...it is Saturday now... I shall start my day with the COZY habitat ... ^__^
Monday, July 21, 2008
Choice is a GRACE you give to yourself
At each and every moment of time, you are given a choice. Even while facing problems or difficulties in life, you can choose whether your actions are to be guided by fear or love.
Guided by fear, you may become righteous, demanding and rigid.
When love is guiding our hand, we are flexible and peaceful with what it is.
This way, we will get a taste of what happiness, peace and freedom truly is.
Living your life with grace means making your choices with love and reponsibility......
Guided by fear, you may become righteous, demanding and rigid.
When love is guiding our hand, we are flexible and peaceful with what it is.
This way, we will get a taste of what happiness, peace and freedom truly is.
Living your life with grace means making your choices with love and reponsibility......
Friday, July 18, 2008
Raw Juice Treatment
Lately, I am back to the raw juice intake. It shall be my dinner substitude whenever there is no special occasion.
To those that not sure if the raw juice intake can help to improve or maintain a healthy body, I would suggest you to try it alternate days. You shall see the before and after effects after 3-4 weeks.
I used to have eczema 2 years back. It is a non cure-able disease that can not be explained by the current medical research. Some say eczema is a hereditary disease, and some say it is due to allergen, environment, food, and etc. However, here I am not trying to get the medical fact to proof how eczema is being evolved. Instead, I am trying to share my knowledge and experience on the raw juice therapy. It is a personal experience which showcase myself recovering from ezcema - at least the skin inflammation does not flare out anymore, after taking the raw juice for 2-3 months.
Personally, I have tried the recipes below and the ezcema just goes away...
To those that not sure if the raw juice intake can help to improve or maintain a healthy body, I would suggest you to try it alternate days. You shall see the before and after effects after 3-4 weeks.
I used to have eczema 2 years back. It is a non cure-able disease that can not be explained by the current medical research. Some say eczema is a hereditary disease, and some say it is due to allergen, environment, food, and etc. However, here I am not trying to get the medical fact to proof how eczema is being evolved. Instead, I am trying to share my knowledge and experience on the raw juice therapy. It is a personal experience which showcase myself recovering from ezcema - at least the skin inflammation does not flare out anymore, after taking the raw juice for 2-3 months.
Personally, I have tried the recipes below and the ezcema just goes away...
- Bitter courd, celery, green pepper, green apple, cucumber
- Beet root, carrot, green apple, celery
Schedule that I have followed:
1st month: alternate the juices daily.
2nd month: alternate the juices every 2 days.
3rd -6th month: alternate the juices weekly.
Please take note that, only have the fruits or vegetables cut when you are going to juice and drink it within 6 hours.
For those who wish to give a try, you may refer to the website http://www.natali.co.uk/rawjuicetherapy.htm. It has the combination fruits and vegetables juices for different diseases.
Hope that the sharing gives you the light of dawn to cure the unexplained able disease.....
Tuesday, July 15, 2008
Sleepless Night...
Starry, starry night, pain your palate blue and grey...
Look out on a summer's day with eyes that know the darkness in my soul
Shadows on the hills, sketch the trees and the daffodils
Catch the breeze and the winter chills, in colors on the snowy linen land
Gazing at the starry sky, my mind just gone wild, and wild, far, and far...
Some images come across the mind, and some sadness urging the tears dropping from my eyes, but, the sweetness memory also merging into my garden of rememberance.
Past is a past, present is what I have, and future is mystery of an uncertainty.
What can I grip from the present moment? I guess each of us have a different answer at different stage of our life..
When I was young, I hunger for the freedom of my life. I choose to be a devil student who always disobey the rules and regulations, yet able to show a good result to fellow educators. It is a choice of the school to retain or expell me...I surrender the choice of being identify as a good and bad student... educator, you take charge of teaching me what is good and bad definition of a student... A disobey student with fabulous result is a good student? Or, an obey student with red color result is a good student? I stand the chance to witness how the teacher make the choice...
When I graduated from my 1st degree, I started to realize life is not about disobeying or not. But, it is how you victor yourself in the eyes of the stakeholders... Sounds devil? Yes, it is! But, it was just telling us the fact of surviving skill - which none of us dare to admit the fact.
I was struggling myself for 1.5 years during my 2nd degree with the destiny to sneak into the IT pool. During the 1.5 years, I learnt to be a sincere person yet having a good result student. But, I guess when the boat is sailing smooth, peoples just got envy of you. Over the night, I was stunt by the reality that peoples just couldnt see you are better than them. So, what can I do? I quit!
I opt to move out from the existing apartment, to an apartment that I do not know anyone surrounding me. I buy my peaceful mind...and I gain my friendships from my new neigbourhoods. Yet, deep in heart, I was questioning myself...is the result so crucial to let go a friendship that we built along for years? I was struggling of the thought...And, it took me a year or two to accept the fact that I just do not belongs to the group. In another hand, I shall happy that I am being accepted by the new community - which being identify as the cream of the crop. I loose an apple, but I gain an orange...It is true that peoples can be smart in study yet having a right attitude being a friend. Ever since then, I hold my religious faith being a sincere person....
Starry, starry night...
portraits hung in empty halls
Frameless heads on nameless walls with eyes that watch the world and can't forget.
Look out on a summer's day with eyes that know the darkness in my soul
Shadows on the hills, sketch the trees and the daffodils
Catch the breeze and the winter chills, in colors on the snowy linen land
Gazing at the starry sky, my mind just gone wild, and wild, far, and far...
Some images come across the mind, and some sadness urging the tears dropping from my eyes, but, the sweetness memory also merging into my garden of rememberance.
Past is a past, present is what I have, and future is mystery of an uncertainty.
What can I grip from the present moment? I guess each of us have a different answer at different stage of our life..
When I was young, I hunger for the freedom of my life. I choose to be a devil student who always disobey the rules and regulations, yet able to show a good result to fellow educators. It is a choice of the school to retain or expell me...I surrender the choice of being identify as a good and bad student... educator, you take charge of teaching me what is good and bad definition of a student... A disobey student with fabulous result is a good student? Or, an obey student with red color result is a good student? I stand the chance to witness how the teacher make the choice...
When I graduated from my 1st degree, I started to realize life is not about disobeying or not. But, it is how you victor yourself in the eyes of the stakeholders... Sounds devil? Yes, it is! But, it was just telling us the fact of surviving skill - which none of us dare to admit the fact.
I was struggling myself for 1.5 years during my 2nd degree with the destiny to sneak into the IT pool. During the 1.5 years, I learnt to be a sincere person yet having a good result student. But, I guess when the boat is sailing smooth, peoples just got envy of you. Over the night, I was stunt by the reality that peoples just couldnt see you are better than them. So, what can I do? I quit!
I opt to move out from the existing apartment, to an apartment that I do not know anyone surrounding me. I buy my peaceful mind...and I gain my friendships from my new neigbourhoods. Yet, deep in heart, I was questioning myself...is the result so crucial to let go a friendship that we built along for years? I was struggling of the thought...And, it took me a year or two to accept the fact that I just do not belongs to the group. In another hand, I shall happy that I am being accepted by the new community - which being identify as the cream of the crop. I loose an apple, but I gain an orange...It is true that peoples can be smart in study yet having a right attitude being a friend. Ever since then, I hold my religious faith being a sincere person....
Starry, starry night...
portraits hung in empty halls
Frameless heads on nameless walls with eyes that watch the world and can't forget.
Sunday, July 13, 2008
The Rules Of Happy Life...
Remeber these five simple rules to be happy:
1-Free your heart from hatred.
2-Free your mind from worries.
3-Live simply.
4-Give more.
5-Excpect less.
No one can go back and make a new start. Anyone can start from now and make a brand new ending.
God didn`t promise days without pain, laughter without sorrow, sun without rain, but God did promise strength for the day, comfort for the tears,and light for the way.
Disapointment are like road humps, they slow you down a bit but you enjoy the smooth road afterwards. Don`t stay on the humps too long. Move on!
When you feel down because you didn`t get what you want, just sit tight and be happy, because God is thinking or something better to give you.
When something happens to you,good or bad, consider what it means. There's a purpose to life's events, to teach you how to laugh more or not to cry too hard.
You can't make someone love you, all you can do is be someone who can be loved, the rest is up to the person to realize your worth.
The measure of love is when you without measure. In life there are very rare chances that you'll meet the person you love and loves you in return. So once you have it don't ever let go, the chance might never come your way again.
It's better to lose your pride to the one you love, than to lose the one you love because of pride.
We spend too much time looking for the right person to love or finding fault with those we already love, when instead we should be perfecting the love we give. When you truly care for someone, you don't look for faults, you don't look for answers, you don't look for mistakes.
Instead, you fight the mistakes, you accept the faults, and you overlook the excuses.
Never abandon an old friend. You will never find one who can take his(or her) place. Friendship is like wine, it gets better as it grows older. When you receive this, you know you are cherished.
1-Free your heart from hatred.
2-Free your mind from worries.
3-Live simply.
4-Give more.
5-Excpect less.
No one can go back and make a new start. Anyone can start from now and make a brand new ending.
God didn`t promise days without pain, laughter without sorrow, sun without rain, but God did promise strength for the day, comfort for the tears,and light for the way.
Disapointment are like road humps, they slow you down a bit but you enjoy the smooth road afterwards. Don`t stay on the humps too long. Move on!
When you feel down because you didn`t get what you want, just sit tight and be happy, because God is thinking or something better to give you.
When something happens to you,good or bad, consider what it means. There's a purpose to life's events, to teach you how to laugh more or not to cry too hard.
You can't make someone love you, all you can do is be someone who can be loved, the rest is up to the person to realize your worth.
The measure of love is when you without measure. In life there are very rare chances that you'll meet the person you love and loves you in return. So once you have it don't ever let go, the chance might never come your way again.
It's better to lose your pride to the one you love, than to lose the one you love because of pride.
We spend too much time looking for the right person to love or finding fault with those we already love, when instead we should be perfecting the love we give. When you truly care for someone, you don't look for faults, you don't look for answers, you don't look for mistakes.
Instead, you fight the mistakes, you accept the faults, and you overlook the excuses.
Never abandon an old friend. You will never find one who can take his(or her) place. Friendship is like wine, it gets better as it grows older. When you receive this, you know you are cherished.
Saturday, July 12, 2008
Welcoming the new, and bidding farewell to the old
Reading on the title, it seems that new born is arrived...In fact, yes.. it is a new born! But...
It wont cry, instead it horns...
It do not have legs, instead it has wheels...
It has no hand, instead it has a sterling...
From the descriptions, obviously it is a car... Yes! It is my newly bought car... I wanted to praise the newly born car, because it brings me luck! Well, although I do not win a prize from it, the car plate number did appear in Magnum, and Sport toto. Dear friends, you miss it!
While I am praising my new companion, I shall express my deepest appreciation to my old buddy.
Dearest KAV3X61,
Thank you for never letting me down for 10 years... never break your promise in the sunny and raining days... crossing the heavy flood in the north and south...With you, I can travel wherever I like...with you, my earning is easy... , with you, I never fear to travel in the middle of night..., with you my uni days are bright...
Billion of memories you gave to me... Thanks!
It wont cry, instead it horns...
It do not have legs, instead it has wheels...
It has no hand, instead it has a sterling...
From the descriptions, obviously it is a car... Yes! It is my newly bought car... I wanted to praise the newly born car, because it brings me luck! Well, although I do not win a prize from it, the car plate number did appear in Magnum, and Sport toto. Dear friends, you miss it!
While I am praising my new companion, I shall express my deepest appreciation to my old buddy.
Dearest KAV3X61,
Thank you for never letting me down for 10 years... never break your promise in the sunny and raining days... crossing the heavy flood in the north and south...With you, I can travel wherever I like...with you, my earning is easy... , with you, I never fear to travel in the middle of night..., with you my uni days are bright...
Billion of memories you gave to me... Thanks!
Simple life starts with simple thinking...
It was a good start of a day by having nice breakfast, and good chat with friends. Although it was not a planned gathering, it happened adhoc via a simple call. Thanks Tammy! Thanks KTV!
Busy days make swinging mind stop loitering for nonsense thought. Do you agree with me? After the busy week, I start to realize that life can be just simple - good sleep, good learning, and it is called a good life...
Although I am not perfectly having a peaceful mind, I feel that I am heading to the right path. And, I believe simple thinking can drive me to the peaceful mind...
Waking up in the early morning with no rush to office, taking my own sweet time to switch myself for a day, reading books, watching series, day dreaming, simple gathering (although it was an adhoc one)...that's my life!
Before I end my writting, let's have my favourite proverb here:
Let bygones be bygones...Long absence, soon forgotten...Do what is right, what better will come...
Busy days make swinging mind stop loitering for nonsense thought. Do you agree with me? After the busy week, I start to realize that life can be just simple - good sleep, good learning, and it is called a good life...
Although I am not perfectly having a peaceful mind, I feel that I am heading to the right path. And, I believe simple thinking can drive me to the peaceful mind...
Waking up in the early morning with no rush to office, taking my own sweet time to switch myself for a day, reading books, watching series, day dreaming, simple gathering (although it was an adhoc one)...that's my life!
Before I end my writting, let's have my favourite proverb here:
Let bygones be bygones...Long absence, soon forgotten...Do what is right, what better will come...
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