Endurance

counting the endurance days -
18th Nov, 2013 - endure the day. tell myself to be strong to face this situation. be tough to go over the unhappiness that causing me demotivated. let the unfairness being proof when time comes. let the karma to teach the bad hearted creatures.

Monday - 18th Nov - Afternoon

Received an email about my application. It shows a ray of light. And, I pray hard to get the application works thru. If yes, there is a layer of warranty for the next step. - at least ease of my worry being jobless, and a layer of cushion to slowly find a requirement fit job. Amithaba! I really pray hard to get the application works!

Monday - 18th Nov 2013

Monday to start the week - an employee will visit the office. Expect to be a week that need to entertains peoples. Hope thing will not go worse. More worry abou tomorrow's dinner - shall check if I can be excuse from it. But, i am really doubt if I can exempted from the dinner. The evaluation is not visible , so he can take any reason to rate you low. Pray hard again to hear news for next stop. Amithaba!

Revamp to gain positive energy

So long has been impacting by negative energy. Come to today, suddenly I feel all the negative energies are not worth to make my life sad. As what all friends see me - I have a good family, loving hubby, happy baby, considerate in laws, and by all means parents and sister, supportive siblings (including in law siblings). Near to freedom financial status. Why shall I bother of the little friction that happens in job? Somehow, it is clear that it is not the truth that causing the friction. It is rather the perception of one person that making the chaos. Job is part of the life, and the current is just part of the job life. It always an opportunity to change. Although luck is not at my end, I will stay tune to consistently improve my self value. Opportunity is given to people that is well prepared and ready to accept. Yes, I fail here. But I will shine back here or somewhere else. I shall look at the happy and positive life of mine. And, yes whoever that hurts me just because he or she feels to penalize me for his or her own ego, please do so. By means, god will not always at your end to help you do bad things. Karma will find you one day for what you have built to hurt a mother, a wife, a dedicated employee. I will pray hard to get my new destination. For the day it comes I will say goodbye to you. And, it is rather of mix feeling shall we cross again to see how each other grows... For this, I promise myself to be considerate, self motivated, self improved and live happily. I shall see how you live with all the karma that you have built. Amithaba! Sadhu sadhu!

Sad day...

not sure how long more to endure for this situation... bad luck in work, not good in health... just feel weaker and weaker... has been working so long, and due to a rude, not ethical employee, being penalized by employer... such unfair! and I learnt that boss is always right in whatever he perceive. He can use other reason to penalize a person for his own revenge reason. learnt that a banana is rather closer to white. hope more Asian companies to grow stronger and beat the west ... but actually not the west. So long has been working with west... cause me no problem... guess, it is problem of a kangaroo land peoples... now, it makes me hate the white of kangaroo..., especially those cant finish from university... people who think he is people oriented, in fact he is like Hitler - autocratic! wish him to hit his day one day... and get him to feel the sadness that he has built to others. with his pet, who bites him, yet he still miss it so much... I do hope that he will be bitten again and again until he dies...