I am who I am..

I am not a brave person to admit who I am.
I use to retract my words when I am being scare off.
I use to deny my feeling when I ask to express...

The more i like something, the more i feel hard to catch it. The more I try to express, the more I speak wrongly. Do I have to explain myself everytime when things happen? I tried. But I guess, it is just being thought as a 'serious' person.

So, am I gutless?

I do not like to be understood by others. I totally out of tune to be understood. I like to work things differently when I sense someone is trying to understand me. And, I act differently when I try to understand others.

I tried to understand myself, but I feel that the flow of denial is strong...I do not allow myself to understand myself either...

I am hiding for something, something that I feel so strong that denying my thought, my words, and my actions... What is that?

It is an evil thought that resist myself to move forward... I guess...