Realize...

It was a pleasant Saturday as I am able to finish my work on time, and no interference to my appointment.

While I was on my way back home, I received a call from someone that I have never seen for 2 years plus. However, she was once appeared in my life for 5 years, who I was meeting every weekend, and staying 2 years together, who I need to pay respect to, who I need to obey to her words, who I nearly need to stay together for my life, who I need to take care the rest of her life if the knot is being tied. She was also the one that I use to hate most, who I blame so much, and who I swore that I will never forgive her.

Never in my mind that I will receive her call, I thought it was a miss calling phone call. However, she made the 2nd attempt to call again. A bit stunt, but still, I picked up the call. I was not able to make the 1st greet, as I have no confident it is a call to me. Shocking, and suprising feeling.

She made the 1st sentence to remind me who she is. I think she realize that it has been a while, we never seen and contacted each others. In fact, I did not hope to meet her for the rest of my life. I thought I will hate her since the day I left. Suprisingly, I have no feeling on this person anymore. Not even to deny or off the call.

I was being asked to pick up my left over stuff. She found out the stuff while she was helping her son to tidy up the room. And, I was being asked when can I go back to pick up them. Spontaneously, I rejected to go back this weekend. I guess I try to buy sometime for myself to think thru shall I back to meet her. It is really a shock to me, as I do not believe that she will ask me back to pick up the stuff that I never need since the moment I move out. And, i strongly believe, I will not need those stuff anymore, as I never need them within the 2 years of my life. I might think too much. But, it is really a midst to me.

However, I am glad of myself. I am able to handle well, and I have no more heart feeling. It is just a friend that I never contacted long time. In fact, if she wants to know the reason, I shall give her a better feeling reason. Nothing much need to be change, as everything is already passed. No matter whoever and whatsover to be blame, it does not help the situation anymore. It is too far to be shorten the distance.

I start to realize, when time past, nothing need to be done anymore. It is a past. Time slips from our palms, no one can grip it. Pain heals along the time...

I shall glad that I have been given a chance to live and learn together. It might not be a happy journey, but still, we have gone thru for years. Glad that we were able to make our turns since we are not fated to the same destination.